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Your Nothing by aselfinflictedmurder, literature

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Your Nothing

Everything will be okay for nothing, you're willing to stay Everything will be alright This emptiness fills your new life Take away all our booze We don't need it as much as you You've been led to nowhere tell me, do you still think life is fair? She shut off her feelings long ago You kept yours close in tow Everything will be okay for nothing, you're willing to stay Everything will be alright This emptiness fills your new life Has your spirit been crushed yet? Has your broken heart been set? You've learned the truth from the lies Your nothing can't stop your cries Everything will be okay for nothing you're willing to stay

Dreamcatcher by aselfinflictedmurder, literature

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Dreamcatcher

Dreamcatcher, take me away Take the nightmares and put them at bay bring back the one I used to love Only the dreams can be enough The demons greet me when I close my eyes dreamcatcher, chase away my cries Take me to the place I used to know If only a memory, that's where I'll go dreamcatcher, save me from my mind Please, just this one last time Let me be in peace if for a few hours Do everything that's within your power It's taking the best of me Please, can't you see? Take me to a place I know If only a memory, that's where I'll go I can't take this despair Close my eyes, I don't dare The demons deceive oh, how I grieve

Dream Catcher by aselfinflictedmurder, literature

Hell by aselfinflictedmurder, literature

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Hell

Do we all live in our own personal hell? It brings us further from the Heaven in which we fell who can save us, if anyone? I feel weak, I'm done. How are we supposed to live like this? With all these lies running amiss? All the love is gone from my soul I have fallen deeper in in this hole Do you feel just as cold? All these lies are getting so old How are we supposed to live like this? Why is it only you who I miss? How can you love someone who was never real? In front of your unknown grave, I kneel. Hell is a place we all live It's an answer no one can give. It's the lies that go unanswered It's a growing form of cancer I

Hello World (Darkness is Here) by aselfinflictedmurder, literature

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Hello World (Darkness is Here)

Hello world, I can finally see Hello world, the light is set free. Hello world, life is but a dream Hello world, what does love mean? Now the sun is slowly fading, the light won't be staying, The world is falling into fear Hello world, the darkness is here. Good day world, can you feel the pressure? Good day world, are you ready for this rapture? Good day world, the eyes are upon us Good day world, their gaze is looking through us Now the sun is slowly fading, the light won't be staying, The world is falling into fear Hello world, darkness is here. Oh world, despair is on the rise the sun is shrinking in it's size Oh world,

The End by aselfinflictedmurder, literature

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The End

This isn't your normal, typical teenage "love" story. Most of it has nothing to do with love. It's mostly naivety. This is different. Not a lot of mushy shit. No happy ending. Just real. Sorry to burst your bubble, but nothing is ever perfect. The story starts just like any other typical boring day during Christmas break. I can't exactly remember how many days before Christmas it was, though. It doesn't really matter now. I was talking to my friends Lacey and George on Tinychat. My laptop was still working then, so I could be on Tumblr, Tinychat, and DeviantArt without getting in trouble (my parents don't exactly condone talking t

Trust by aselfinflictedmurder, literature

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Trust

If I open my eyes, will you be there? Did you love me, did you even care? What should I believe? Why should I love someone when people always leave? Trust doesn't exist anymore in my heart I shouldn't have believed anyone from the start. Honestly, what is honesty? Why should I trust anyone if they're going to lie to me? Is the end ever in sight? Can I tell the dark from the night? Learning to love is a must but can I relearn trust? If I let anyone in will my life re-begin? will the torture, the pain stop feeling so mundane? the world is full of secrets but will the lies ever be lifted? Honestly, what is honesty? Why should

The End? by aselfinflictedmurder, literature

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The End?

I guess love was never meant for me I guess we were never meant to be. I knew you were too good to be true my heart just turned black & blue. When did you decide that something wasn't right? Was it when you were with her all night? What's done is done, I refuse to run. Before, I'd wait for you until the would would end but now, well that depends. Is the world darker now for you too? Is this a new situation for you? If you knew how we'd feel why'd you put us through that hell? You know how easily I get carried away with things you should've known what I'd say. But what's done is done, I refuse to run. Before, I'd wait for you

Deafening Silence by aselfinflictedmurder, literature

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Deafening Silence

I always thought I knew how to deal with strife, but no one ever taught me how death gets in the way of life. I was told that we were too young to know grief, but really, they're too old to hear my plea. I didn't know silence could be so loud do you know how much you've let me down? the one we both knew and loved, it's me, away they shoved. Can you hear my silent pleas? Why can't you come back to me? All I hear is a silent suicide why should I even try? This deafening silence is killing me are you around to hear me? can you see my invisible tears? can you feel my naive little fears? If you're still around, can you tell me

Tommy by aselfinflictedmurder, literature

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Tommy

Jessy, tell me it's not true. Jessy, tell me you have a clue. Jessy, tell me he's okay. Jessy, I can't lose him this way. Tell me what's going on he can't, he can't really be gone. Tommy, you've gotta make it through, I never told you how much I loved you Tommy, you've gotta be okay please don't leave me this way. Lacey, don't tell me these lies, is he going to make it or is he going to die? Tell me why he didn't stop and think. Didn't he think about how my heart would break? Tommy, you've gotta make it through, I never told you how much I loved you Tommy, you've gotta be okay please don't leave me this way. Tommy, please ho

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Shinedown by somethingforthepain9, journal

Shinedown

Apr 6, 2013

So on March 25 I got to go to the Shinedown and Three Days Grace concert. Three Days Grace was fucking amazing. I've liked their music for a while but never would've called myself a fan. After the concert, I definitely am. They were so good and Matt kicked ass. But Shinedown. Oh. My. God. They played amazingly. It was seriously the best thing ever. I can't even describe how amazing they were. If you ever get the chance to see them, take it. Brent made a speech about how rock is a lifestyle and how the music can get you through. It was just so true to my life I started tearing up. The best part of the night, however, was when I got to mee

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July 30
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I'm a 16 year old obsessive fangirl. What else is there to know?

Favourite genre of music: Metal
Favourite photographer: Nikki Sixx
Personal Quote: "Behind every exquisite thing that existed, there was something tragic."- Oscar Wilde

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Cocktail

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Guns N' Roses, Motley Crue, The Cure, The Smiths...

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Oscar Wilde

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aselfinflictedmurder

Jan 1, 2014

Devious Journal Entry

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It has been TWO goddamn years Lindsey. Why can't you just accept the fact that he was never real and move the fuck on?

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aselfinflictedmurder

Mar 14, 2013

Devious Journal Entry

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All of my posts on here seem to be depressing. And I'm sorry for that. So sorry. Anyway. I have so many friends. I have a loving family. A loving team. Guys who I talk to and have come close to dating many times. Some who I have dated, but remain close friends. A fantastic church. People who care. Why is it that I feel so alone? When I don't want to talk to someone, I ignore their text or call and wait for the next text or call to come through. But right now, my phone is silent. Empty. Has been for hours. Are these just the rantings of a spoiled child who begs for unnecessary attention? Or do I have a legitimate reason to be a little dow

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aselfinflictedmurder

Aug 23, 2012

Devious Journal Entry

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So my parents are seperating. I think. Everything's really confusing at the moment. My dad's living at his parents (which is next door, so it's not that bad). Nothing definite is supposed to happen until after my sister's wedding. (How ironic. A wedding and a divorce.) But my mom was talking to some guy and she started "developing feelings". Which sounds pretty bad, but I'm not all that mad at her. Maybe I'm just in shock or something, I don't know. But my dad is devestated. My mom is devestated and upset with herself. And they're all worried about me because of how quiet I am. But what am I supposed to say at a time like this? You shouldn't